It's that time again, and not that most of my thoughts aren't random.. here goes another set of them for this edition of
RTT.
On Nightmares: This is a particularly troubling issue for me.. because I don't usually have nightmares. At least I don't remember them if I do. As I am one to listen to the messages that my psychic underside is sending me.. but nightmares are uncharted territory for me. Initially, I would have to say that there are reasons for everything that happens on the inside slopes of the mind.. but these days I don't exactly get what is happening. An example: last night I had one of those moments where you are pretty much entirely awake, then you completely fall asleep within seconds and go directly into
REM style sleep (nothing to do with
Michael Stipe) ..and begin some hard-core dreaming. This happened to me..
In the dream, I was sitting at my computer chair in my desk, right in front of my computer (where I spend quite a bit of time,) ...and instead of my bedroom window being to my right side, the sliding glass door that is in the living room area, was there in it's place. Suddenly, a very large and tall woman, with short-
ish curly hair.. along with a small child, literally walked OVER the balcony, into my bedroom! (which is now somehow connected to the balcony in my living room in the
dream) ...and she just made this face of "
i'm sorry" as she covered my mouth with her hand! She walked OVER the balcony as if it were a small obstacle that was merely in her way! I could barley speak, my hands felt numb and I was attempting trying to ask her to leave the place. I have no idea where the child was at this point.. but the dream lasted all of what seemed to be seconds.. and I snapped out of it.. quite aware that I had been abused in the nightmare. It was pretty weird and a little scary.. so of course I decided to get up and check all the doors and windows. Keep in mind, I AM on the second floor of my apartment complex..and the dream was a bit
un-reasonable..as dreams are often meant to be ... but it scared the heck out of me.
I have no idea what relation of images like that could have to my 'real-world'.. but I am left to still think about it until this afternoon, as I write about it. What do you think? Strangeness for sure. It completely freaked me out.
As for every-day nightmares.. my little sister.. is 14 this year. FOURTEEN. She is a young woman, and I never knew how scary that could be for a big brother. I mean, I am more than a little tripped out. It makes me want to move home and watch over her constantly, as I know exactly how boys are at her age.. and beyond.. I am honestly sitting here with a shiver of fear running through me as I think about her at school with those little punks.
My
lil' sis is the first
girl amongst my siblings and the youngest. In many cases the youngest gets away with everything.. but not in this case. My Mother, rightfully so, keeps almost an oppressive thumb on her social activities. No
Myspace,
Facebook or unauthorized online activities..and definitely no
un-supervised outings with friends. It sounds harsh, but I do believe that it is necessary. SO when My Mom told me that my little sister is going to spend the day at the mall with her girlfriends and see a movie and have lunch for her birthday.. I almost lost it! Of course, these are American teenager-style things to do .. things I did with my friends when I was a kid.. but in t his case.. I am again, freaked out about it. I asked my Mom..
"are you letting her go alone!?".. My Mom just kind of chuckled and explained that she would be at the Mall with the girls, just not hanging not with them.. I feel better.. but it's still crazy.
Work nightmares have been prevalent lately as well. I heard a co-worker say some years ago, that -
if you are having dreams about work.. you are working too much.. and I tend to agree. I do spend more time with my co-workers, at work.. than I do at home most weeks.. The thing is, I feel like have successfully separated my brain functions that involve work, away from my home-life. It is a sanity measure. Sometimes though, the images of the day seep into my dreams, and thus, nightmares.. making for a few moments where I just lay there wondering what it all means.
Working as much as I can, during the busy season, is something I have mentioned before.. it will be very slow soon.. and for about 6 months.. so I gotta get the cash in the bank while it's available.. or I will sorely regret it later... but yes, it fuels some crazy dreams sometimes.. when you are always working.
Well..that is my submission for this week of the
RTT. I am gonna finish laundry, hit the gym, and get my ass to work. Usual day stuff. I hope to hear from all of you
about your RTT happenings, or just life-doings. See you on the next post!
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