Disillusion

I have been in this town for about a decade. Even writing it out and sitting and thinking about that fact makes me cringe a little.. for various reasons which I may or may not go into eventually. Needless to say, I am the kind of guy that likes to keep moving, learning, doing - and I don't know how much of that has happened lately.

Vegas has always appealed to many parts of who I have decided I am. The dreamer, the salesman, the creative guy, the party-goer, the photographer, the "imagineer", the narcissist the enthusiast, and the lazy sloth. I mean.. to name a few :) After combining the years I have been here and the current economic climate of things.. I often wonder how I could ever continue to survive here, happily.. yet somehow I am doing it. This recent gig with the nightclub scene has turned me into a b it more of a cynic.. but I have learned a few things.

1.. women really do like the guy that I am. They smile at me and flirt with me like never before.. but I know a lot of that has come with the territory of being a guy in a good looking suit.. a good-looking guy, I might add ;)

2.. I look pretty good in a well-fitted suit. Working to stay fit and healthy, along with a great suit and a smile, really go along way with the ladies.

...and maybe 3... I am only happy when I am doing something that I feel is actually helping someone. Sounds strange in relation to the scene I have described, but it's true. I constantly find myself trying to be the guy I would like to meet if I needed a bit of assistance.. no matter what I do. Don't get me wrong, I do have days when I just want to chill out all alone and think about nothing and everything - but that comes with the package of being ME.

I don't know what I am getting at here.. but i think I am starting to get tired of all the hustling and game that is played in this place. The question is: What do I do next? More later.